My Real Life

September 25, 2012


Filed under: Uncategorized — Amy @ 3:05 am

It is 2:58 am and I’m wide awake.

Real Man and I tried, valiantly, to watch Revolution tonight, but neither of us lasted past 9:55.

I hit the ground running at 5:45 am and literally don’t stop until I collapse into bed at 9:00.

So, why am I up, when I could barely keep my eyes open through dinner?

Tiny woke up around 2 and I went and rocked him and put him back in his crib and covered him up in all of his blankets and came back to bed.

And lay here, eyes wide open.

Once I’m up, I’m up.

There’s no going back, for me.

This lack of even an iota of downtime means that my mind doesn’t have time to do the usual thinking and dreaming and worrying and planning that it needs to do during the day, and so it’s grabbing the chance.

“Body finally still?” It asks.

“Excellent…now it’s MY time to run.”

And so it does.

So, what do I do?

After setting it free for about thirty minutes, I try to harness it here. Try to guide my thoughts into a coherent, less frantic state of being. Try to force some order and sense into my mind.

So that when I put down the iPad again, all is quiet in my head and I can grab a bit more sleep.

Because, if I fall asleep right NOW I’ll be able to get at least two and a half hours of sleep.

Two hours twenty five minutes.

Two hours twenty.



  1. Oy !! I can sympathize with you . These kind of things keep happening to me as well. Have some kind of caffeine ready after school or it’s all over !!

    Comment by allison — September 25, 2012 @ 6:36 am | Reply

    • It’s crazy! We can give each other zombie waves when we pass in the neighborhood! 🙂

      Comment by abozza — September 25, 2012 @ 8:04 am | Reply

  2. I feel for you. I’m a wreck if I’ve had no sleep. It’s hard turning off the brain so the body can sleep. Hope you can still have a good day 🙁

    Comment by Mary Anne — September 25, 2012 @ 9:11 am | Reply

    • It’s always a good day. 🙂

      Comment by abozza — September 25, 2012 @ 10:30 am | Reply

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